Cool.
I’m a fuck up and I can never make things right. I can’t ever say what I want too and when it finally comes out, it comes out all wrong. FuckingFantastic.
So much for that getaway day with you :/
What I Seriously Wish For
is someone who can accept me for who i am. For the way i look and the way i act. For the thing i like and the people that i hangout with. Not judge me for the way i dress or the things I am interested in. I want someone who will give me there shoulder when i decide to act 14 and cry over stupid shit, someone who will be there through thick and thin and know that things get hard and work things out with me instead of bail. I want someone that wont be looking or interested in other people when they are with me. Is that too much to ask for?
You’re such a tool
i may have thought you were one of the most amazing, strongest, nicest people that i know, but after recent situations, i don’t believe that anymore. you use females for sex and even if you are in a relationship with one of them, your not really a reliable boyfriend. you bail out quickly. I feel bad for all the females that date you in the future. You may be good at what you do and you may be good at tricking people into thinking your better, but there’s something off about you.
How are you
going to sit there and ask me to open up to you and say that we can be friends again and it all needs to start with honesty. And you beg me for days to tell you how im doing and what’s going on in my life and when i finally do you don’t have anything to say. i spilled my entire heart out to you and you didn’t say anything back. dont sit and act like you care if you really don’t give a shit. i got my hopes up thinking we could be friends again and then you went and shot me down. that’s an ok thing to do, i have feelings for you still and i don’t appreciate you acting like you care only for a day, that fucks up my feelings. your just showing your true colors with me and your definitely not the person i thought you were, which is such a disappointment.
Just Because
I post something saying how much I’m in love with my ex boyfriend and that i miss him, doesn’t mean that I was never into other relationships that i had. Your first love, is always going to have that special part of your heart, and when you have a child with that person, a little mini version of the guy you fell in love with, to remind you everyday of what you had and what could have been, getting over your feelings is so difficult. Im in love with him, and i always will be, doesn’t mean i don’t want to move on or that i can’t be happy or can’t have feelings, because when i told you that i thought i might be falling for you, i wasn’t lying, i had those feelings. i was a lucky girl that got to date you and you treated me right. i had fun the time we had together, and then some after. i don’t want to lose our friendship and i want to stay close with you. I do like you still, not a lot, but i always have fun with you and you can always make me smile. my feelings were real, believe it or not.
